Post-Grad Update

Considering the number of times I have tried to keep this thing up, one would think I'd have given up by now. But no. Here I am, once again, giving it yet another go. Likely, this will be the only post for another several months, but I suppose that's okay. It's my blog, after all. I'm writing for me.

Life post-graduation, thus far, isn't much different than it was before graduation. This, no doubt, is largely due to the fact that I have one more class that I'm taking before they will give me my diploma. At least it's the entire (radiologic technology) class. If it wasn't, I'd surely be finished already.

I've a number of things I have to accomplish. Firstly, I really need to finish getting my room in order. My roommate moved across the hall to that newly vacated space. She wanted to sleep, of all things - can you imagine? That means, however, that I don't have to feel guilty about staying up to all crazy hours of the night because I won't be keeping anyone but myself awake. I'm very near to having everything settled into their new, spread out locations, but not quite. My 'everything' drawer - in which I stuffed anything that was scarcely important enough to glance at and that important enough not to toss - was overflowing, and thus I decided that it would be organized and placed in my little black file box. Unfortunately, that entails removing everything from said drawer and separating it into appropriate folders. *sigh* I just can't win. Just can't.

Guilt-issues over the penpal are making the occasional appearance as of late. I'm a mother friggin' hen, y'see. When it comes to my friends, I'd do just about everything in my power to help them obtain contentment. Even if it means speaking harshly sometimes, or bending over backwards, if that'd do any good. I just can't do that very well from a distance - especially since I'm a bit forgetful, and a regular subscriber to "Out of Sight, Out of Mind." I tried to explain that to him, but haven't gotten a response to the email. Kid needs to find himself, then find friends. Much as I wish I could, I can't be there for him from a distance simply because I'm me. Not like he needs or deserves. Worrying about it will only leave me emotionally drained, though, so I won't do so. I do hope he's able to find his happiness, though. Honest, I do. He's my friend, after all.

Ebbs seems to be doing well these days. Knowing that she is finally facing some of her inner demons makes me so proud of her. Once she's able to put all of it behind her, she'll be so much happier and free - she'll be stronger, too. I wish that I could keep her by my side and protect her, I wish I could rip apart all who would dare hurt her, but more than that... My wish for her is to be able to stand on her own two feet, to protect herself, and to be able to forgive - for her own sake. I wish to rescue her from the shadows that would pull her down in darkness, but all I can do is support her as she struggles to find her own light.

I miss her.

All else aside, I'm still single, still writing, and STILL procrastinating. That's it for this post - drop in again... I'm sure there'll be another one eventually.